I have recently learned through my own emotions that just becasue you may have lost someone years ago, doesn't mean that the holidays won't be hard to cope with.
My son passed in May of 08'. That Christmas was so difficlut. 09" seemed to be easyer, maybe it was becasue we had our daughter Sarah in august of 09'. but this one, 2010 seems to just be tearing at me. I can't release this pain. I am going to get through this. My husband is here with me, I have Faith and Sarah. But I am finding my mid wondering.
It could just be with the book coming to a end that I have a few how to say unresolved issues to cope and to deal with. I know I need to talk to my husband to make sure that he knows what's going on w/ me, but so I know what he is dealing with as well. He lost his sons. We held Thomas and said good bye together. I know he misses them. And maybe all we need is s good cry.
Just becasue we have a list of thing to do, the shopping, wrapping presents, doesn't mean that your life stops. You eed to learn how to deal, roll with the punches, so to speak.